Speechless

Wellllllll....hmmmmm......*not sure what to write*
_{(Hahahahaha I'm Speechless about my own drawing, what irony is this!??)}

I have serious mixed feelings for this drawing....
I don't like it....but I like it....
Because that totally makes sense.

There are flaws all over the place...I...can't even really bare to look at this. And the shading is super rough. It's been a long time since I've legitimately drawn with pencils... there are such obvious strokes in this....(The fact that my patience level has been severely lowered from all those abstract horses doesn't help much either...)
Therefore I hate it...

But wait, there's more!

I actually had fun drawing this. I haven't had fun doing realism in a bloody long time. Like seriously, this alone makes me so happy I honestly want to cry. Realism, I've missed yooouuu...
Therefore I like it.

And man, that hair.....
That hair.....
That
Hair
OMG
That
Freakin
Hair......
All
That
Freakin
Curly
Hair
....
....
....
Was so much fun to draw! Omg whaaaat?! And I thought that hair was gonna be the end of me; That hair was the reason I kept putting this off lol. It's the reason why I always put off these MJ drawings, too much surface arreeaaa and I am lazzzyyy.

So....now knowing that (annnd the fact that Motivation has finnaally came back from vacation ) I probably will be turning out a whole bunch of MJ <sub>(along wif da horses....of courses)

Omg shuddup you're writing so much craaaap!</sub>
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8x9 inches
5H, 2H, H, HB, 6B graphite pencils
Somewhere in the 5 or 6 hour range. I did a significant part of this over a livestream sooo....yea lol
For the love of all thangs pretty and beautiful, go look at the ref pic [link]
_{Vanity Fair photoshoot...........do I even need....to say anything else. Omg, so much deliciousnesssssss gaahhhh edjwekwfrehufihdqw; and so much caaake}

Critique if you pleeaasse.